Friday, July 29, 2005

silence before the storm


Oh no! it's coming! where's my raincoat?!


no tsunami is coming again, i hope. however, the silence is over.

next week onwards, i'll be facing many deadlines for my assignments and presentation. no time to relax, and i need to get my job done, or i'll have to get some kerosine to burn the lamp near my study table.

well, i've got to be calm.

by the way, POP SHUVIT rocks! check them out HERE. might get their album HERE AND NOW in the near future. not now though, cause i'm currently low on cash. i was at their gig recently. will blog about it soon (pictures included!)

and i'm shifting away to another place. still, the storm follows along.


Love & Peace!~


BC?

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

where i am now.


This is my classmates and i posing for the camera. it was supposed to be all black theme. but since not everyone wore black, so it was Black, White and anything in between theme lah. labelling ourselves Crazy JRians, i hope i can stick to this bunch of wacky friends till i graduate. i want to stick to this group of 15 people (Yen Yen and Chin Han were not around when the picture was taken.)

and since Thillai and Malini left, JR 1 has only 15 students. our class is... small.

i need to remind myself always; i'm Bernard Cheah Hock Kwee, 05UABxxxxx, not Cheah Hock Kwee Bernard, 03UBBxxxxx anymore.

leave the past behind, look forward into the future. everyone deserves a second chance, right?



Love & Peace!~


BC?

interesting fact.

it was mentioned in the papers a few weeks back, but it's worth emphasizing on it!

don't tell youths that smoking causes lung cancer and brain haemorrhage. they don't dread that. they wouldn't be bothered about their health till they're older. *sigh*

tell them: smoking is bad for your sex life because it makes men impotent and women ugly.

click HERE for more info.


got this picture from the same news site. even apes find smoking cool. i find it rather amusing (to see a monkey smoke).



Love & Peace!~


BC?

Monday, July 25, 2005

UNLEASHED!

though i'm yet to watch that action flick staring Jet Li and Morgan Freeman, this entry has nothing to do with the movie. i'm talking about myself; i should be unleased of all the problems i have.

solution? PRAYER, DAILY DEVOTION and a rocking-positive-uncanny attitude!~ in short, depending on God no matter what the circumstances are like.

having problems is being human. but the divinity comes in the form of turning to God for help and repentance. i learn, that moving away from God is just plumming yourself into more self-pity and sorrow.

so, i'm thankful that i have great friends around me. you dudes keep my spirits up and make me smile along the way. i maybe a little moody, but i've cleared some issues already! at least i've a little clarity in thinking. i don't want to slip into deeper depression.i don't want to let others down. i don't want worry others. i want to be a reflector, a testimony for Jesus Christ!

anyway, not blogging for a week is killing me. i kept a list of things to blog about. and i'm going to continue blogging, no matter what! be prepared, as what i've been keeping all this while will be unleashed!


God grant me the serenity to
accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful worldas it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

Reinhold Niebuhr

Love & Peace!~


BC?

colourful.



Colorful fingernails. this is what happen when you're facing midterm exam stress, and your friend has many different highlighters. thanks Mei, for the photo... and for decorating my fingernails.

our classmates celebrated our birthdays during the opening of this semester. apparently, Yen Yen, Chee Been, Mei and myself are birthday babies of June! and they celebrated Alex's as well, although his birthday's in May, during the semester break.

now, what's I-Ling doing in the middle of us? and why is only Chee Been's hand there?

The cake our classmates got for us. both this and the photo above were taken by Lydia!



Love & Peace!~


BC?

Monday, July 18, 2005

i'm Spider-man, no more!

don't feel like blogging nowadays. i'm now being bogged down by many issues. and it's a huge problem.

you know, when you have small, minor stuff that just don't go your way, it isn't a big deal? but if you have a few, unrelated minor issues that clump together, it irritates you. i'm facing THAT problem now.

anyway, i wouldn't be posting up entries that often for awhile. i've told people before that i wouldn't blog when i'm angry, depressed, or anything in between. besides, almost nobody read this blog. even if i criticise my friends or classmates here, they wouldn't even know about it. probably they would just sneeze as it type out bad stuff about it.

but i'll be putting up pictures lah. and they say, a picture is worth a thousand words?



by the way, i'm not Spider-man. *argh* Peter Parker has issues. i have issues.



Love & Peace!~


BC?

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

eh? why ah?

as i was about to take a shower, i took off the stuff in my pants pocket before stripping down into my birthday suit. from my pants pocket were a handkerchief, my wallet, my Zeal-ni (my mobile phone lah!), headset and a red pen. a red pen?

wait a minute... whose red pen is that?! i don't remember putting one into my pocket, what more owning one. that's so so weird!

it is as weird as old biscuit. yes, old biscuit. i wrote it in my Mass Media and Society notes, and no idea what why i scribbled it there in the first place. and it's under Media Comsuption topic, like the Pac-Man i drew in it. but it's understandable, at least to me, that it's a metaphor of us consuming media in our lives. and again, why did i write that down in the first place. Mr Ben didn't mention about anyt old biscuit in his class.

it's like say, "the answer is 42!"

anyway, did anyone loss a red Kilometrico pen?



Love & Peace!~


BC?

Sunday, July 10, 2005

a glimpse of me through Johari's window.

who the heck is Johari?

you're guess is as good as mine. but this is the dude who came out with the window of self-awareness theory, that i learnt in Interpersonal Communication class. basically, it's the theory of yourself, and what others perceive about you. devided into four parts, it shows the things that everyone knows about you (OPEN SELF), what you only know about yourself (HIDDEN SELF), what others know bout things you don't know (BLIND SELF) and things no single soul and yourself knows (UNKNOWN SELF).

let me just share and insight of me, Bernard Cheah:

when i'm in secondary school, i'm one of those students who would answer whatever the teacher asked, or was daring enough to tell him/her what he/she wanted to hear. but those were nothing more than mere answers. just points begin thrown into the air. what were the explainations? is there any evidence to support it? NO. i said it for the sake of saying it. for the sake of fame perhaps. but the point is, i act before i think.

but nowadays, i've grown up. i realised what i've done isn't smart. if a lecturer were to ask a question, i would answer if needed. it wouldn't again be known by people of my intelligence. it would either to break the silence in the atmosphere, not wanting to let the lecturer feel that his/her talk has gone to waste or to express myself. at least i know what was going on.

but still, i'm myself. i've ever-changing, but i wouldn't want to be anyone other than me.

now, this information has become part of my OPEN SELF, being fused with details from my BLIND and HIDDEN SELF. no HIDDEN SELF here, i hope. and it seems like Miss NIcole's class is paying off in knowing myself! this, is a glimpse of Bernard Cheah.


"I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me"

excerpts from I Don't Wanna Be, Gavin DeGraw



Love & Peace!~


BC?

Thursday, July 07, 2005

how fortunate we are.

this is the message sent by Wing Hooi to me just now:
"Remember the day when 2 planes crashed at the WTC? 3 underground trains and i bus were bombed in London. Hhhmmm... A peaceful hr in Malaysia, some chaos at other part of the world... Aren't we lucky?"

well, i believed we're really blessed to be protected by God in this country of multi-culture and race. thank God that i'm here, and not there. but i believe, all this are happening according to His plan.

just watched the news on TV, and found out that 40 people were dead and 300+ injured as a result of the bombing in London. want to check out more about the London Bombing, click HERE.

excuse me while i reply Wing Hooi's message.


"An eye for an eye, and the whole world would be blind."
K.Gibran

Love & Peace!~


BC?

what do you think?

















a picture Justin, one of my buddies, who's now in Australia, pointing at the sign of the guy's toilet. however, this entry isn't about him; it's about the toilet.

what would you do in a given situation:

you're going back home after a long day in university.
you're tired, exhausted, and hungry.
you're thinking of going back home.
then,
you need to go to the toilet.
you really, really, REALLY NEED to go to the toilet.
you spotted a hotel on your way to the LRT station.
toilet's available in the hotel.
would you go in, and answer nature's call?
would you enter the hotel, even if you're not a guest in that hotel?
would you feel guilty doing that?

what would you do?


Love & Peace!~


BC?

Monday, July 04, 2005

The Rojak Series #7

as i'm typing this TRS, i wonder where i last wrote one, cause it's been awhile since i wrote one. but nonetheless, here's one:

item no. 1

i should remind myself not to buy the newspaper on weekdays! i'm currently one of those students subcribing The Star newspaper via the university at a cheaper rate! it would make me a fool to actually buy a copy, and then collecting it from the library.

the sad thing is that i collected today's and Friday's copy from the library this morning. the sadder thing is that i'm actually bringing home ont only two The Star newspaper, but also a copy of The Sun and Malaysian Today. the saddest thing is that i'm a fool.

*sigh*


item no.2

i've finally watched THE HITCHHIKER'S GUIDE TO THE GALAXY! and it's good! well, with the silly humor and sad depressing robot, nothing can beat the nonsensical logic of the president of the galaxy! and you wouldn't find anyone more depressing (and probably sarcastic) as Mervin, the robot with Genuine People Personality (GPP).

do remember to bring a towel wherever you go! it may save your life from the Vogon. and do remember to bring along The Hitchiker's Guide to The Galaxy on your way.















as Marvin, the robot with GPP points out: DON'T PANIC!

item no.3

a list of movies i would like to watch:

1.War of the Worlds
2.Mr & Mrs Smith
3.Batman Begins
4.Fantastic Four
5.Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe


might consider watching Initial D, if i can get cheap tickets and a good company for it. boy, do i have stuff to do before watching any of these movie. i'm thinking of watching them in MBO, this new cineplex in Ampang. it's new and clean!

item no.4

it seems like there's something brewing in the committee (i would not like to elaborate it to respcet the committee members.) i wonder if we're moving in the same direction or not?

i wonder. i pray.


item no.5

*this is being typed as i'm at home, after typing the first few items.

on the way home, i took the bus to KL, and you all know how fond i am of the bus. i had to stand on the way, carrying my bag and a buddle of newspaper on my right hand. what caught my attention was that this old lady sitting beside me, took the newspaper and placed it on her lap. i was grateful as she help me ligthen my burden. i wonder how many of us would offer to hols something for a stranger?

i've experience this once, while i was still staying in Millenium Court with Fam, and there was this lady who offered to carry some groceries we got from Carrefour in Mid-Valley Megamall in the bus.

i'm touched.


item no.6

i've got to study now, as i have a midterm test this Wednesday, and three next week! *argh*



Love & Peace!~


BC?

Sunday, July 03, 2005

is it an epidemic or conspiracy?

well, it was on the news, and still is: about a third of the total number of students in a boarding school in Manjoi were infacted with upper respiratory tract infection, causing them to suffer from fever, cough, running nose and sore throat. HERE is the latest update from The Star. and to check out the achieve for more info.

well, i've been thinking; could the undergraduate in UTAR and people i know falling sick to the same strain of virus? i mean, the symptoms are the same, and for the past two weeks, many people were caught in the way of this sickness. could it be an epidemic?

and the other thought from my grey matter was the it's a government conspiracy! well, widen your imagination, and think Mission-Impossible-Secrey-Agent-Man-on-a-mission. could it be, that a strain of new virus created by the government, and was stolen? agents were assigned to retrieve it back, but failed? some terrorist or mad scientist released it since there's no margin for terrorist negotiation?

such thought as occured when SARS and Hand-Foot-Mouth disease were a scare back then. so, could it be a conspiracy?

no matter what, just take care of your health. we need to be studying instead of sleeping at home.



hmm... i hope there isn't an outbreak that turns us into the torch-carrying living dead!


Love & Peace!~


BC?

Friday, July 01, 2005

you can get this at a bookstore near you.


Death Note

interesting what you can get in a store nowadays. and this is what Rowen and i got from the bookstore yesterday: a Death Note.

what does it do? well, basically, write someone's name in it, and he/she will die. to spice it up, you can state down the method of he/she dies, when and where, and what he/she will do moments before death, provided whatever is written is sensible and you know the name and face of the person you want to kick the bucket.

based on the manga of the same name, written by Tsugumi Ohba and illustrated by Takeshi Obata, it's basically about Light Yagami is a young but bright high school student who has until recently led a boring and uneventful life. That changed very quickly when he found a strange notebook with the title "Death Note" lying on the ground one day. It wasn't until later that he realized that this "Death Note" was the tool of a shinigami (god of death in Japanese) from another world named Ryuk, and that it had the power to kill whoever's name was written on its pages, so long as the writer knew the victim's face as well. Light realises his ability to kill whomever he wishes, and he uses it to begin a "cleansing" of the world from evil. It does not take the police long to realise that somebody is responsible for the mysterious deaths of criminals, and he is then soon hunted by the Japanese police force and a mysterious detective known as "L".

to know more about this anime, do check it out HERE (i quoted the info from there!) do be warned about the spoilers in it.

oh, where do you get a Death Note to rid of the people you hate? get a copy of KREKO KOMIK REMAJA issue #157 from a bookstore near you. the Death Note comes with that. and i'm still waiting for shinigami to come by and explain more about how to use that book.

oh, let me write my name in it, to identify it's my Death Note!



the manga, Death Note.


Love & Peace!~


BC?