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Love & Peace!~

BC?

Letting Go.

"...'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now..."

Taken from Vertical Horizon's You're A God

There are somethings we need to let go in life. It could be a person, an object or a habit that we just cling to for so long, that we rot because of it. Like kryptonite poisoning, it kills you slowly and painfully.

Letting go sometimes means dying to your own self. Nope, not talking about jumping off a 25-storey building or stabbing knives into yourself. Rather, die to your own selfish ambitions and desires. And pursuing something of higher calling.


24 I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. 25 The man who loves his life wil lose it, while the man who hates his life in the world will keep it for eternal life. 26 Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My father will honor the one who serves me.

John 12:24-26, NIV

Thus, i believe, if we were to let go of things for God's calling, we would gain so much more in return. No doubt it tears you up within; but that's the price we need to pay, like refining gold. Without going through the fire, it would still stay tainted and dull.


31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:31-34, NIV

I'm trying my best to let go of my 'god(s)', as i walk through the fire.

Love & Peace!~

BC?

Bang! It Could Be You.

"...Everyday the same routine before I skate off to school but who knew that this day wasn't like the rest,
instead of takin the test I took two to the chest.
Call me blind but I didn't see it comin and everybody was runnin but I couldn't hear nothin, except gun blast,
it happened so fast I didn't really know this kid though I sat by him in class.
Maybe this kid was reachin out for love or maybe for a moment he forgot who he was or maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged,
whatever it was I know its because

We are, we are the youth of the nation...."

Taken from P.O.D.'s Youth of The Nation

When we thought the Columbine High School shooting was horrifying, Americans once again find horror in the latest incident at Virginia Polytechnic Institute and State University, where 32 students were killed by a student before turning the gun on himself.

"BLACKSBURG, Virginia (April 17, 2007): The deadliest school shooting in US history spread shock waves though the United States on Monday, reviving calls for tighter gun control and renewing the debate about campus security.

The rampage left at least 33 dead and 15 wounded at the Virginia Tech University here and most of those killed were students attending classes at a hall at the university, where the gunman apparently used chains to lock the doors and prevent the victims from escaping, campus and police officials said...."

News excerpt taken from sun2surf.com

Click HERE for more info on the news.

Apparently, this dude, Cho Seung-Hui has some issues also to deal with.

"BLACKSBURG, Va., April 18 — Campus authorities were aware 17 months ago of the troubled mental state of the student who shot and killed 32 people at Virginia Tech on Monday, an imbalance graphically on display in vengeful videos and a manifesto he mailed to NBC News in the time between the two sets of shootings.

"You have vandalized my heart, raped my soul and torched my conscience,” the gunman, Cho Seung-Hui, said in one video mailed shortly before the shooting at a classroom and his suicide. “Thanks to you, I die like Jesus Christ to inspire generations of the weak and the defenseless people....”

Taken from New York Times

Click HERE for more of the news.

He may look cool, but the outcome of his actions sucks.

Who is to blamefor putting a gun in a hand of a child? The NRA? Parents up-bringing? Stress from studies? Teachers? Society? The law? By pointing fingers at others, we to need to examine ourselves and ask, could we be the one who pushed him to the edge?

Somehow, i believe all parties are involved in this disaster. And no one should look away from it, but imbed it into our conscience, reminding ourselves that history could repeat itself.

Watch Michael Moore's Bowling For Columbine - a movie documentary that took an interesting look at the Columbine High School shooting, and the elements connected to the incident, everything from the sales of guns to the public and Firearms amendments to public safety and school regulation.

Maybe, all we need to do is be a friend to the people around us. That person maybe the quiet girl sitting at the corner of the classroom, or the nerdy boy who rarely speaks to anyone. For all we know, we can help prevent something like this in the future. Like in the play, An Inspector Calls by J.B. Priestley, everyone is connected in someway or another. Ergo, whatever decision we make, whatever we do is a butterfly effect.

For all we know, we could stop another kid from running amok in school while putting lead into other students.


"If everyone cared and nobody cried,
If everyone loved and nobody lied,
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride,
Then we'd see the day when nobody died...."

Exceprt from Nickelback's If Everyone Cared

Love & Peace!~

BC?

Smilling With Mouth Wide Open!

I can’t stop licking the back of my teeth. It feels so clean!

When I was younger, I rarely went to the dentist. Visits to the dentist’s office was solely to put out a bad tooth. It was my two numbskulls-for-siblings, Rowen and Ernest, who would visit the dentist to get their teeth filled; and a couple of years back, Ernest got his braces.

I didn’t fulfill the quota of getting a dental check-up every six months. So, the last time I visited a dentist was many, many moons ago! Till this afternoon.

Following my dad's intruction, i drove myself down to Petaling Bahagia Government Dentist, which is a ten-minute drive from my house. After two registrations (i registered at the wrong clinic before realising that the dentist was just beside the health clinic!) and a surprisingly short wait, I walked into the dentist’s office.

And for the first time, i got my teeth scaled. Ten minutes with the dentist was almost agonising, as she scaled my teeth with this little drill/water-pressure gadget in my mouth as i hold this tiny vacumm tube to suck out water and saliva from under my tongue (perhaps she doesn't want me to choke on my own saliva, or drool all over during the procedure).

No way on earth would i want teeth like D-Roy, one of the Arrancars from Bleach.


I can’t stop licking the back of my teeth.

Besides that, I had one tooth filled today (another first time for me!), and I’ll be getting two other decayed teeth filled next month.

Heard of the karma phrase "what goes around comes around"? I still remember this one time, where i laughed at my friend when he had an ulcer in his mouth, and a few days later i had not one, but TWO ulcers in my mouth. I can imagine my brothers laughing as my stainless record of good teeth has been broken.

Goodbye to those days i could eat ice and anything without complaining of sensitive teeth. Looks like i have to take care of my diet (for weight-wise as well). At least I can eat with both sides of my mouth!

I can’t stop licking the back of my teeth. Did i said that just now?


A RM3.7mil smile, brought to you by Chip Skylark of The Fairly Odd Parents.

Love & Peace!~

BC?

Mustard Seed.

"You are my strength when i am weak,
You are the treasure that i seek,
You are my all in all,
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up, i'll be a fool,
You are my all in all...."

Taken from All in All by Dennis Jernigan

All in All - That’s one of the songs that Oliver chose when he led worship during the Youth Combined meeting couple of weeks back. Well, many found it hard to swallow the fact that he worship led (i swore i saw a pig flew by! HAHAHA!~) Kiddish song, but as long as the people have the right attitude of worship and serving God, what song you sing doesn't matter. It's the heart of worship that counts. Click HERE for more on what Oliver has to say about his experience.

Oliver, good job!

But there's a reason why i'm typing this entry with such a beginning - i'm running low on faith, as it seeps out little by little.

Too many things have been put on my shoulders, and it's taking a toll on my, physically, mentally and spiritually.

Last Friday, despite having the new members around, i failed to manage the bring the cell group into having a proper discussion. I guess when we're doing the same lackluster routine day in and day out, we too mundane.

In other words, bored; as there isn’t much change going around. I smell decay somewhere (and it’s not from under the sink of Oliver’s house) But still, without change, we can’t go anywhere. Change is good!

A couple of week’s time i maybe relieved of my post as Assistant Homegroup Leader. Reason being i don’t agree with taking up a job where you do not or can’t use half of the supposed responsibilities given. It’s no different that being a puppet in a parade.

I don’t feel like taking up leadership in the youth group, but I would still be around guiding the other younger ones.

In this juncture of confusion and doubt, I really would want a faith of a child -innocent, naive and carefree of problems and responsiblities weighing down adults.

I know of primary school kids as young as 11, being rebellious when being pushed to strive well in studies. Pressure in small, controlled amounts is good to ensure things get moving. I guess anyone would do better if their not over-pressured by parents, or other people for that matter.

If i were to keep talking about my darn problems, i guess some would just feel as depress as i am (or worse) and would decide to jump off a five-storey building. Thus, i shall stop my rantings here.

No matter what happens, i want to keep my faith (and perhaps, sanity) intact. But like the refining process of putting gold into fire, i want to emerge a better person through all these circumstances, even when my faith is as tiny as a mustard seed.

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

Matthew 17:20, NIV

"...Sometimes, when I feel miles away
and my eyes can't see your face
I wonder if I've grown to lose the
recklessness I walked in light of you

They say that I can move the mountains
And send them crashing to the sea
They say that I can walk on water
If I would follow and believe
with faith like a child..."

Excerpt from Jars of Clay's Like A Child

Love & Peace!~

BC?

Too Much Info!

I can't believe in the past two weeks, i've been going to the cinema to catch a total of four movies!

All assignments and presentation are done and over with... and with all that behind, and exams to look forward to (?!), i decided to take a break and catch a few movies before hitting the study desk. Here are the movies i've watched so far (in no particular order):


Meet the Robinsons

Yesterday, Alex Hooi, Pek Mei and I watch this movie after their presentation for Creative Strategy for Advertising was done with – the finale of all presentations and assignments.

Another feel good 3-D movie from Disney, which revolves around the theme of sense of belonging (family), time traveling and perseverence; moving forward despite of failures.

The movie was somewhat predictable, but for RM6, it was worth it lah.

Plus, there was an interesting quote from Walt Disney at the end of the movie.

"We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths."

Tiny the T-Rex was cute!


Mukhsin



The story touched on how a friendship between a boy and a girl, which blossom into 'infatuation' and somewhat became awkward along the way.

The underlining sub-themes are interesting as well – like foreign-cultural influences, family-comes-first, the effects of polygamy on the first wife, etc.

I wonder why it took too long for us Malaysia to accept our own movie, until it won the Grand Prix by the Kinderfilmfest International Jury and a Generation K-Plus Crystal Bear Special Mention at the 57th Berlin International Film festival. Kudos to Yasmin Ahmad for what she's done!

Do click HERE for more details on the movie.

I find the ending to be interesting; especially the last two lines. What are they? Do watch them yourselves.


Bridge to Terabithia

Another story between two friends, and the fantasy world the brought to live - with imagination and an open mind.

I guess why many were turned off by this movie is because audiences were expecting action from Terathibia itself (since the two main characters, Jesse and Leslie were the 'rulers' of this place.) However, the story basically revolves around their friendship, and the things that goes around their lives, like family and school.

Towards the end, the movie does touch on accepting the facts of life, and that life must go on, no matter what. Oh, and not forgetting that it talks about how the memories left behind, should be put into good use to impact others.

"She brought you something special when she came here, didn't she?"

- Jack Aarons, from Bridge to Terabithia

Mr Bean's Holiday

Last Monday, i watch this ridiculous movie with Chee Been (ironically, he almost look like Mr Bean himself!), Chin Han and Soo Yee. This was one of my impulsive, think-not-of-consequences decisions i made.

In the whole movie, Mr Bean was just plain dumb-lucky (literally), from trying to eat raw seafood and keeping awake while driving to saving the day for everyone in the movie with the video he took - everything he does is just darn unbelievable. But the ending was lousy.

I personally prefered how the first movie ended. But i know this from watching both the Mr Bean movie; my IQ dropped a few points.

Now, how am i going to study for my finals?!

Love & Peace!~

BC?

For Us Sinners.

"Thank You for the cross, the mighty cross
That God Himself should die for such as us,
And everyday we're changed
Into Your image more and more
Yes, by the cross we've truly been transformed.

And we're so amazed, and we give You praise
That You would save us at such a cost...."

Taken from Mark Altrogge's Thank You For The Cross

I wonder if i could be more like Christ, sacrificing Himself for the sake off others. There couldn't be a more humble act than this.

I wonder if i could take the pain He endured, physically and mentally, throughout the time He was caught till He was on the cross on the darkest hour of the day.

I wonder....

"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."

John 15:13, NIV

Love & Peace!~

BC?