They Rock!

The new intro for the anime BLEACH, Rolling Star by Yui totally rocks! I guess this rockish song fits the feel of the anime like a glove. She also sang an outro for Bleach as well, entitled Life. It's slow and mellow, it was an okay ending for the anime.

While watching her video clip, i did some research about her - she's as old as my brother Ernest! Can't believe she'll be 20 this year! For more info about this young singer/songwriter/actress, click HERE.


Well, she may have a wide mouth, and she sings as though she's in pain, but it's the singing that counts!



Here's the shorter version, used for the OP the anime Bleach. Subtitles included. Mind the language though.


This is one song currently stuck in my head now, besides The Fray's How to Save A Live and Casting Crowns' Who Am I and several others.


*Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to all blog readers celebrating this festive occasion of family reunion, exchanging of cash prosperity and fortune. May the Year of the Pig Boar bring happyness, good wealth and health!


Love & Peace!~

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Happenings This Week.

Can't believe i woke up with a nightmare today! And i'm grateful it's nothing more than a nightmare... for if it was real, it would be deja vu for me- to face my sins once again.

February 17 (today)

As many know, it's the eve of Chinese New Year. After doing my morning devotion, i had a hearty American breakfast (courtesy of Rowen) and cleaned my house a little. And for some strange reason, it was raining today. A strange sight during the Chinese New Year period.

Will be going for our family dinner soon.

Anyway, the past few days was an adventure for me.


February 16 (Friday)

After spending the afternoon in uni distributing oranges and cookies with Dewgem, David and Ms Louise to the FAS lecturers who are still around the campus, i found myself in Mid-Valley Megamall to purchase tickets for Ghost Rider.

Yes. Rowen, Julius, Fergersen, Alwin, Sui Li and I watched the movie along with Alex Hooi and Wei Yee. And IMHO, i think the movie was good, but not good enough to be paying RM11 for it. It was a little too short lah.


The Spirit of Vengence. He's just... hot-headed! (pun unintended)

The saving grace was the way Nicholas Cage portaryed Johnny Blaze/Ghost Rider, and the flaming bike and the weapons, including the freaky Penance Stare! And watch out for witty lines (and signs) along the way.


February 16 (Thursday)

Official, school's out for the festive season, and on the same evening, the Talent Night Committee had a small barbeque with the contestants and the other stage performers.

We did enjoyed ourselves over some BBQ chicken wings, sausages, calamari balls and an overdose of lame jokes all around. It was not only a bonding event, it was to celebrate after the effort put into making this year's Talent Night a success.

Simple, clean fun without alcohol!

February 14 (Valentine's Day - Wednesday)



A day of flower-receiving and chocolate-giving (namely, Ferrari-Roshes!) most of the time to someone you admire or significant in your life; all in the name of love!

While many of the PR students who came on that day for Culture and Communication class wore many shades of red, us JRians totally forgot to wear black.

That aside, i'm glad i'm still single. Little or no planning needed for this day.


February 7 (Wednesday)

I can't believe more than a week has pasted since the UTAR Talent Night Jan 2006 has passed, when it only seem like yesterday. Themed "The Unmasked Myth", the event was more of a drama than a typical talent competition.


The poster for the event, with the contestants' faces all over it.


The plot revolves around the White Bird, who is own by the Forest Gods and admired by the animal spirits (the contestants) of this mystical forest. One day, the White Bird met a new masked friend (the Creature) and began to fall in love with him, only to discover that he's ugly and rejected him.

Realising that she loved him not for his looks, but for who he is, she felt into depression, while the animal spirits tried to cheer her up. The creature, in the end, showed up, and the White Bird begged him to be with her.

After accepting each other back, the decided to runaway. This is where the Forest Gods intructed the animal spirits to capture and kill the creature.

Initially, both the White Bird and Creature were supposed to be dead, impaled by spears at the end of the drama. But since the ending was disapproved by the higher authority, they had to quickly re-edit the ending. (not wanting to give the impression that suicide is the way to solve any problems in life.)

So, the new ending was the animals decided to drop their spears, but the White Bird was struck dead by the Forest Gods (just like a heart-attack scene from Death Note). Feeling sad, the spirits sang together, and life was brought back into the White Bird, bring everyone to a tear-jerker ending.

The End.


The animal spirits, along with the White Bird and the Creature.

In the end, it was Ruth the Bat who won the competition with her creepy yet talented acting of a vampire bat, followed the crowd's favourite, Vicky the Leopard and Su Mei the Doe (deer).



Ruth and me, after the event's over.


Well, i must say that this is the best Talent Night that FAS has ever come out with. Not only was it the best throughout the history of FAS, but it was definately better than the other two faculty put together.

Just take look at the stage and decoration, and you'll be amazed by the amount of money, sweat and time invested in it. Not to mention the numbers of late night we had to endure to make sure practice makes perfect. And finally, all this is over.

For me, i want to take one day at a time, enjoy the things and event God directed to my life. Bliss.


"...'Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
'Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives..."

Excerpt from The Calling's Our Lives

Love & Peace!~

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So Sad?

Pokemon #44, Gloom - As downcast as he looks, he's just sleepy. Someone get him some tissue!

Earlier today, i bumped into Jun and Zikang sitting by the back stairway - shocked that there are people sitting around such areas revising. (Worry not, nothing indecent happened. Thank goodness!)

As i make my way down, Jun asked why my recent entries sounds depressing, and if i was going some kind of problem.

I told her, yes, i had been through some problems a few days back. But i'm currently doing okay.
As i was walking down, i blurred out that without problems and conflict, life would be boring. Zikang, as a phychology undergraduate, jokingly replied that he wouldn't have any job if the world was problem free (in which, he made sense).

Before i exited, i told them,

"The issue is not whether or not you're facing any problem or not. Rather, how you overcome the problem that really matters."

As i closed the door behind me, i started to wonder on what others think about me. Am i a cheerful person with clouds of problems, or a trouble person putting on a smile to carry on. That thought let me to this question - am i wearing a mask to hide who i really am? Or does the mask really represents who i am.

No doubt, we wear a different kind of mask in every different situation. A smile during the happy times, a frown and tear during times of troubles or a furious, Hulk-like face when angered. Every circumstances calls for a different role, and we subdue to it to blend in.

But one thing is clear - no matter whether i'm happy or sad, i must always remember to summit myself to God. Knowing that things both good and bad happens for a reason; a purpose that human mind can't comprehend.


A scene from Kubo Tite's manga, Bleach. Here, Shinji Hirako enlightens Ichigo about the existance of the Vizards.

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength."

Philippians 4:13 (NIV)

Yes, all things are possible if i put my everything in doing something and trusting God and His promises every single day of my life. There's hope and life in doing so.

Jun, thanks for being concerned about me, but i'm pulling through and i'm well. Happy i am, and gloomy i am not.



Never can i get over Gloomy, the gore-loving, violent teddy bear. Bloody!

Love & Peace!~

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Everyone Loves Elmo! (ver. 1.5)

Last year, Dewgem told me this this interview where this TV show host Rove McManus had with Elmo from Sesame Street! Not too long after that, i decided to check it out myself, and boy, was it funny!

I told other friends about it, and some laughing to it. Others were just dumbfounded.

Anyway, here's the video:



Oh, and here's the interview with Kevin Clash, the puppeteer for Elmo. And it's interesting to know he does both the voice and the movement! One comment stated "Elmo is black! Revelation! LOL".



I couldn't stop laughing the first time i heard this,

"Elmo loves wasabi.
"That's why Elmo doesn't have any eyelids
"... wasabi is a sometime food."

Elmo is cute and funny... but Cookie Monster is still my favourite. Of all the muppets, he's the only one that eats... cookies! Mmmm... cookies.

I believe there's still a child in everyone of us. The question is if he/she has grown out of it yet.


Love & Peace!~

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Crushing Down The Earth

"...It ain't pretty
After the show
It ain't pretty when the pretty leaves you
With no place to go
If you think you want it
Here's the place to get it
But it ain't pretty...."

Taken from INXS' Pretty Vegas

The truth hurts, but nonetheless, the truth sets you free. Opening your eyes to what reality is about.

Not only have i got down from euphoria, but now i realised that there's another demon living within me. A sin that i never would have found out if it hasn't been the events that have been going on these past few weeks.

I'm definately in no way or shape really for a relationship, unless this demon of mine is destory or under control. Another indication that i need God more that ever. Like i mentioned before, i don't one another person to live through the hell i'm going through - to be dragged through something i alone must face.

"It's better to grow in love than to fall in love"

Ruth, thank you.


"I can still hear it.

"When he came out during the fight with Byakuya (Kuchiki), I was able to drive him away. Until then, no matter how many times i threw the mask away, it would always come back but after the fight, it suddenly disappeared.

"From that point on, I've kept hearing him. And from that point on...

"Deep inside of me, he's... calling out to me...

"It sounds a lot closer lately. It isn't like a daily thing.

"It's much more than that. But now it sounds even closer than ever. From when i was talking to with (Shinji) Hirako.

"I can certainly tell that much, at least.

"He wants to swallow me up... erase me...

"What... what the hell am i suppose to do?!"

- Ichigo Kurosaki

Taken from Kubo Tite's Bleach (Chapter 190 - Crush The World Down)

Love & Peace!~

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Brand New and Test

Oooh! Blogger has a new look. I guess there'll be a few new options for me to tweak with.

Tomorrow's the grand day - Jan 2007 Talent Night here in UTAR PJ campus! With the theme "The Unmasked Myth", do expect to be blown away not only by the contestants, but by the decorations and performances! Plus, spending almost half my time in meetings the last short semester and most of my time in the training and practices of the contestants, it should be mind blowing!

*yawn* I have had only three hours plus worth of shut eyes since Monday. I'm exhausted. But my mind still going on and on and on....

And with the Talent Night, comes the part where the committee have been teasing about being with one of the contestant. I totally understand what it means when people are talking behind your back and laughing in front of your face.

Those people are those know about this little infatuation of mine.

Which i would want to tell my buddies about over dinner sometime this week. It's not to brag, but to inform of what have been happening in this interesting life of mine. And for crying out loud, she is not an accessory which i hang by my side - she's another human being with feelings.

Indeed, a human being who belongs to God. I must remember that i don't own her. Thus, the gift of free will each of us has. I shouldn't be possessive over her, or i wouldn't be any different than an obessive stalker.

"It's better to grow in love than to fall in love," she told me over an insightful and delightful date breakfast last weekend.

One thing i need to do is to think twice on the actions i take, as each move affects another. I should be balancing the thoughts that have been going through my mind and my heart - thinking through the kind of judgement i been making and will make. Perhaps too little blood is up there as it's running down the southern region!

Prayers and guidence from God is what i need every single day, that i may grow in wisdom, knowledge and maturity every new day - a predicament in which God is putting me through a test of faith and patience.


"Convinced of my deception
I've always been a fool
I fear this love reaction
Just like you said I would

A rose could never lie
About the love it brings
And I could never promise
To be any of those things

If I was not so weak
If I was not so cold
If I was not so scared of being broken
Growing old
I would be...."

Excerpt from Jars of Clay's Frail

Love & Peace!~

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Living On Vague Emotions. (v1.5)

I was supposed to put this entry up days ago. But now isn't too late.

"...I'm watching you watch
Over me and I've got
The greatest view from here
I'm watching you watch
Over me and I've got
The greatest view from here

Now that you know why you feel like you do..."

Taken from Silverchair's Greatest View

The lyrics above explains a lot about me now.

For the past few days, i've been living in a state of total euphoria and ignorance - blissful about my surroundings and others has this mutual connectivity when online. The center of emotion when haywire, while the nervous system was unable to comprehend the information overload. Eye to eye electricity. Wonderful.

In laymen's words, I'm infatuated. I'm ambiguously in love.

Love & Peace!~

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Cool Stuffs

Finally, it had arrived!

Last December, i won My Chemical Romance's latest album, The Black Parade through a Traxx fm contest. And a couple of days back, the CD was delivered to my front door. After hearing it once, two words come to my mind; gothic rock. And i have to admit, it rocks.

On a (b)lighter note, check out this adorable thing in my palm.

*Argh* I'm speechless, it said.

It's an interesting story to how i discovered this little cutie.

It was at the busy foyer in the campus, when i spotted a little brown bun on the floor. Curious, i picked it up, and it gave me that blank, speechless look. I went speechless as well, staring back at it.

Since then, i've became it's owner. Known as FMT (Fried Man Tou), this soft toy doubles a stress reliever. Guess i'll keeping this dude with me till it's real owner comes to claim it.

This ain't your cheap, ordinary alarm clock. It's a cheap, extraordinarily cool alarm clock!

After a mamak session last week, David Heng, Dewgem, Joshua Wong and i subbled on this stall selling this alarm clocks. From a distance, i was enticed by the colours radiated by these devices. Needed a clock, i asked the stall manager for the price.

And low and behold, it costed only RM10! A price deemed fit for my budget. Without thinking to much, i bought this alarm clock!

It's hot - burning-coal, red hot!


Soon after, David got one for himself. But it was Joshua who took the cake when he came back to purchase TWO of this gadget!


Look at how funky psychedelic purple can be... it's deep.

Nope.... This an no Kyprtonite. But it's gloomily green!

Being able to change into seven different colours, this toy is indeed eye-catching. I can watch it turn from green-to-yellow-to-orange-to-red-to-purple-to-blue all night long!

Now, it has turn ice cool blue.


And wow... the final item that i bought (without much thought given) last week was the second-hand SX Jazz Bass Guitar! For a whoopingly low RM550, it's now in my hands.

Surprisingly, my dad didn't make over the issue, nor did he went into a cardiac arrest. Anyway, all i need to do now is to get a strap, a casing for my sayang and a cable to get going with this funky ax!

Cool!
(There goes my money... ouch)

Love & Peace!~

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Freedom For Bloggers!

To bloggers all around, stand up for your rights as a blogger!~

The government ain't going to be monitoring or censoring our blogs!

"The government won't censor Malaysian bloggers on the Internet but they must be responsible for what they write, Prime Minister Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi said Tuesday.

"We do not censor the Internet and that's our policy, but they (bloggers) must understand that there are also laws on defamation and sedition, for example...."

For more details, CLICK HERE.

"News of Malaysia's first defamation law suit against two bloggers has led many in the online community and non-governmental organisations (NGOs) to rally together to protest against the legal action.

They are displaying web banners on their blogs, initiated an online movement named Bloggers United and are setting up a fund in the name of blogger solidarity and freedom of expression to defend their rights in the court of law...."

For more details, CLICK HERE.

I guess in whatever we do, whatever we write or testify, we should take full responsiblity of it, and be prepared to eat our own words when the time calls for it.

I think blogs will be around for a very, very long time.

Love & Peace!~

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Here I Am.

Nope. Once again, i'm not dead, yet. Neither have the ISA black suits took me away, yet.

I can't believe i've not been updating my blog for awhile. This blog deserves an entry, one which is long-overdued.

Yes, i'm still here. Alive and kicking, i'm now in the middle of the third week of the semester. Many things have been delayed, but looks like they have to start ASAP, or they'll never be done when the eleventh hour comes.

Currently, i'm working with the UTAR Jan 2007 Talent Night finalist. Basically, people in the committee, like Jolene, Li Mei, Nicholas Ng, Joshua Wong, Patrick and myself are most of the time, if not always, present at the practice. It's either they'll be practicing their dance moves or singing and acting, i'll be there supervising and at times, giving advices to them. And i'm back home almost 11pm every weeknight. Seriously, it's tiring, but it's a commitment i need to take up. *yawn*

A couple of days back, a freshmen enquired somethings regarding the Talent Night event. I was insulted; not about the Talent Night request, but she asked if my hair was fake?! Speechless i was. I mean, who would want to attach fake hair to the back? *argh*

The gang from the anime "Honey & Clover". Where i am in live now is somewhat similar to Yuuta Takemoto (first from right) One day, i would want to travel away from home in a journey of finding myself. One day.


Another note, the next time anyone were to call me out, don't EVER call me out for the sake of introducing me to MLM or some crappy pyramid scheme! I felt so used and betrayed when a friend asked me out out of the blue, only to present to me about this money-making program.

Let me just say this - "I DON'T WANT TO BE INVOLVED. Thanks, but no thanks!"

if you really want to meet me because we haven't seen or chatted in awhile, don't ever shove stuff like this to my face. I feel insulted, as you misused your intention without revealing the real agenda....

Looks like i have to go for now. Readers, expect more to come.


"...And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong
And how can the world want me to change
They're the ones that stay the same
They can't see me
But I'm still here...."

Taken from Jon Rzeznik's I'm Still Here

Love & Peace!~

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Analysis of Week 1: Things to come.

The first week as a senior as just passed, and another week is coming soon.

Got to meet my lecturers, and i must say, there are interesting ones. Some can keep on talking like the Duracell bunny, captivate the class attention by his creativeness or scared the class by showing statistics of how many people scored C in that particular subject.

And that includes the class their teaching. I've not gauged which subjects i want to score, but i want to excel in those advertising and computer-based subjects. In short, i want to increase my CGPA!

If there's one word to describe the state i was in recently, it would be "Browning Out".

It's being mentally fatigue, pushed to the edge and at the brick of burning out.



With all the responsibilities i have, whether it's in the university, church or at home, at currently at that stage now. When the tasks handed to me take up more than i can give. And the best part is i'm just beginning with my semester. How much more can i cope with six subjects under the belt this time? Not forgetting the fact i'll be teaming up with some group members, whom which is not much reliable as a piece of log.

I'm now picking up the pieces i left behind last year. Sometimes, there are irresponsibilities that bite back now. There are bridges burnt that need rebuilding once more. Regrets.

I realise that whatever burdens you have on your back, bring it to God. It's either that or you'll take up to much burden, and you'll break - breaking into frustration and tears.

Why carry everything on your own, when there's God who just to great to comprehend and able to lift your problems in His name?


"...and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need, You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
cause You're all that i believe
and the one that created me
Jesus.. because of You.. i'm free..."

Taken from United Live's Free

Seriously, i would love to be carefree of all the responsibilities i'm undertaking. But that wouldn't be great for everyone, would it?

If i wanted, i would have taken my own life last year. I'm glad now i didn't, despite the workload and pressure i'm facing now. With that, i know i am alive.

Come on, Week 2! Show me what you've got!

Love & Peace!~

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Dear John....

Nope... I'm not writing a letter to John Reuben anytime soon.

I just finished writing a letter to the faculty office - seeking permission to use the rooms for the practices before the Talent Night event in UTAR PJ on Feb 7. And i almost forgot how to write a proper formal request letter. Kudos to the Internet for it's vast amount of information and worthless, unreliable crap.

I don't usually write letters; usually not through snail mail. I do sent e-mails (no, no... not forwarded e-mails) to my e-pals. But lately, none replied. So, i stopped....

I have friends who write to each other, the old school method in this era of technology. I do remember them telling me they find the thrill of doing so. Mind you, i heard this from two of my classmates from TAR College - who apparently write to each other.

The last time i did, it was to explain why i was late for my exam. It happened two years ago, when i was a freshmen, i came into the examination hall for the paper about 45 minutes late! According to the rules, i could not sit for the paper thirty minutes after the paper started. However, after telling the situation to the invigilator (and begging), i manage to sit for the paper and later, aced it! But the deal was i was to write a letter to the dean, explaining the situation.

I typed the letter, printed it and handed it to the dean. And apparently, the board of examiners are alright with the situation. Thus, an A- for that paper. That was the first time (and hopefully, the last!) i was ever late for an exam.

Now... to get it printed. And where do we get stamps from?

Love & Peace!~

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Finally - Updated.

Now i can update my blog. But when i am able to do so, i can post my the blog entry i wanted, for some strange reason.

That behind, i just got my past semester's examination results. Despite passing both papers, my overall CGPA dropped. I'm now in stuck on how i'm going to bring this piece of news to my father. *sigh*

From this exam results, i know that i'm a B- student if i don't study. Yes, i didn't study for these papers and went into the examination hall headstrong with just my understanding on the subjects.

And i got a C for Moral. Just now classmate, Soo Yee was joking with me about how tak bermoral i am. *ouch* And i heard from Adeline that those who score A for Moral, have no life. *double ouch*

Looks like i have to study really hard for the last three semesters here in UTAR to maintain my CGPA above 3.2 points.

And my computer's having some issues. Or is it the Internet?

Love & Peace!~

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It Hurts: Redux.

I don't know how it actually feels like, but it sure hurts a lot when someone you love with all your heart and soul leaves you.

I got to know this dude, through the freshmen who have helping me out, and this dude was talking and wondering about why his girlfriend dumped him a couple of weeks back. From the way he talk and expression, i guess he still isn't over about her.

Apparently, this dude is a player, who has a roaming eye, but have changed after going out with this one girl for ten months. After arguements and many things in between, she dumped him, spitting him out like bad meat. He was left devastated.

His friends told him to forget about her.
His mom told him she doesn't know what she's losing out.
I butt in, surprisingly, and gave a more surprising thought,

"Maybe she isn't meant for you? Maybe she was suppose to be with you so that you would change into a better person. Perhaps there'll be someone better who IS meant for you. So, she's there to prepare you for this better person - a turning point!"

I can't believe that came out of my mouth. But then again, what if the people you are with are there to help mould you into a better person, more suited for your one true love?

I can't tell if i'm saying this because i'm thinking clearly, or the fact i'm facing fatigue from the Day 1 of Orientation Week in the campus.


"...after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go..."

Excerpt from Lifehouse's Blind

Love & Peace!~

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First.

This is what i don't want to be throughout this year. And it's possible with God's help.

Many things are there for me to complete, but breaking down i shall not along the way.

Love & Peace!~

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